Very depressed today. I’m not entirely sure why. I’ve been feeling down for the past few days, although I’ve been trying to keep occupied. Today it just all kind of fell on me. Part of it is just being lonely; even though Phil and I are getting along a lot better, it’s still not the same as it was pre-breakup. I miss being happy and loving…it leaves a hole. Part of it is work, and I do need to get my ass in gear, redo my CV, and start seriously looking for another job. I’ve scheduled riding lessons, and Phil and I are going to start fencing with a new, local club, and I’ve been doing a lot of work on the radio station site, but still, there’s too much time to think. Too much time to be sad.